I find myself in the amazing position of no commitments for the weekend. School was closed today, the boys are with their Dad for the weekend, and here I sit in my pajamas. During the day I alternately read, caught up on laundry, balanced the check book, allocated savings and retirement money, paid bills, and relaxed. I dozed. I tried to watch television, then quickly realized I didn't need the continuous storm coverage. It's going to snow, then snow some more. There will be wind. I don't need someone else to tell me what I can see with my own eyes out the window.
So often I fill my time with the useless outlet of television. I'm trying to be cognizant of this, and work to correct it. I don't need to get bombarded with advertising for superfluous items to magically make my life better. Instead of advertisements advocating for satisfaction with what one has, they advocate dissatisfaction, a dearth, selling us on a "lacking" mentality.
With the new year, I am trying to take a "plenty" attitude. I have enough. What I want is not something that can be purchased, or remedied with a luxury item.
What I want is what I have: two boys, a roof over our heads, food in our bellies, warmth in our hearts. And another day to just breathe.
Friday, February 8, 2013
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Reminders
I find myself in almost the same boat health wise as I was last year at this time: sick. I have been doing nothing in an effort to try and get better. And also because I just have no energy, for much of anything.
What does seem to have energy is my brain ~ although that could be fueled by the prednisone I'm taking, which speeds up everything for me. Nevertheless, I have been actively ruminating on many things, hence the "reminders" title of this post.
I keep forgetting how much I truly take for granted the little things, like climbing up the stairs with the laundry. Or puttering around the house, or being as mobile as I want to be.
It is daunting to ask for help, and my parents have been especially helpful this latest go-round. Shuttling the boys to and from the bus stop, getting my groceries in for me.
I think maybe my title should have been "thankfulness" instead; as I was thinking I realized how fortunate and blessed I am. I have a warm, cozy home to rest in. I have family and friends that love me and help me. I have two spirited, amazing boys that make everything fun.
Honestly, a bout of pneumonia every year I could really do without ~ but I am thankful for the time to rest, the time to reflect, and the time to just be.
What does seem to have energy is my brain ~ although that could be fueled by the prednisone I'm taking, which speeds up everything for me. Nevertheless, I have been actively ruminating on many things, hence the "reminders" title of this post.
I keep forgetting how much I truly take for granted the little things, like climbing up the stairs with the laundry. Or puttering around the house, or being as mobile as I want to be.
It is daunting to ask for help, and my parents have been especially helpful this latest go-round. Shuttling the boys to and from the bus stop, getting my groceries in for me.
I think maybe my title should have been "thankfulness" instead; as I was thinking I realized how fortunate and blessed I am. I have a warm, cozy home to rest in. I have family and friends that love me and help me. I have two spirited, amazing boys that make everything fun.
Honestly, a bout of pneumonia every year I could really do without ~ but I am thankful for the time to rest, the time to reflect, and the time to just be.
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